fight

havent fought with my mom since a while. and today, I fought with her.. haha..

I know my body isn't as health as it used to. I can't breath well [pilek, klo bahasa ancurnya gue udah bengek parah LOL], my throat is hurt, dizzy as hell, and many mores. so of course I'm being so lazy to speak to anyone

and so, when I was preparing for sleep earlier after locked my bedroom door, mom knocked my door roughly. lazily and weakly I opened it, but I had to press the door hardly if not, It would have never opened. and so, mom scolded me because I was hit the door roughly. but I didnt want to discuss it because my head is very dizzy..

so she yelled at me many times and screamed. then, the final, she told me, "I never want to have a child like you"

and... who want?????? well, she has said it many times before this. haha..

after that she scolded me more. and hit me twice *sighs*

I'm out of limit, so I yelled back, "I also never want to born in this family! I never can choose which family I should to be born to. but till now I never say it to you! "

and it brought up her emotion. she pinched my arm, hardly.. its still getting red now. haha
then she yelled to me many times. told me how much I have to thank for her. said to me that she never ask anything to be given. also let me know indirectly that she was the best mom

I'm outta and sick with this... why everyone is being cruel to me nowadays? >>;;
I'm tired. I'm sick. and of course I have my time for my own, haven't I?

*sighs*


my head is getting dizzy again. so I'm going to sleep soon. good bye