Sabtu, 25 Oktober 2008

IMPORTANT

I want to take an university outside from my country, indonesia

But I still don't know which one I pick

I need an uni which is :
- not so expensive [international student's tuition is like a hell xD;]
- quite good
- allow their students to take a part time
- located in a good place with not so expensive living cost
- using english, if its not, at least we get 1 year for learning the language
- it will be more good if there's scholarship also
- not in UK, because UK's english is really hard!!! XD

can you guys give me some uni's that you know? D:
please!!! >___<
I really need it


I already have some options anyway :
SFSU [san fransisco state university] - CA
nan yang university - singapore
UC Berkeley - CA
ritsumeikan university - Japan
Kyungsung university - korea


again, pleaseeeeeee~

Jumat, 24 Oktober 2008

please, for people who think that I'm their friend

please.. dont leave me alone
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not good enough
I know I'm not the most caring
I know I'm not only your best friend
I know I'm not someone that you will cry for
I know I'm not the one who will always be your side whenever you need me

but I beg to you, don't leave me. I do love all of you, but I feel that everyone has gone slowly but surely

I feel alone, the pain comes and stabs my heart so bad
I do want to be a good friend. But I know I am not. I never be good enough for you
I know that I'm not real nice. I just pretend to be nice. So you all won't be mad and stay away from me

to be honest, I'm envy with people that can show theirself completely with their friends and their friends can accept it, even like it
I am not able..

never





I'm afraid that when I show you my bad side, you will hate me. you will disgust me, you will go away from me. or even you will break our friendship
I stand with pain for so long, I just want to have a true friend. but why is it so hard?
why my sacrifices is not being worthed? and how come you replied it with yell and curse?
what did I do?

-sighs deeply-

I just need, someone who think, that I am here. I am not someone that you only can have fun with. I am also a human. who has emotion as well like you do
so please, treat me at least a little bit more nice
and feel
that I'm breath
in this world





>>> I will be better soon, don't worry. I'm just in emo mood

Kamis, 23 Oktober 2008

O____O;;;

moso yah... kan gue tadi sama adek gue gue lage nyanyi2 suju geje gitu, sambil dancing tentunya LOL terusan gue unjukin mukanya anak2 suju, enyak gue komen deh. terusan akhirnya sampe ke poto ituk, tau gak enyak gue ngmg apa? [gakk..]

ini yah ituk :

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"Yang itu mirip sama asuk lho.. -nunjuk foto ituk-"

PERHATIKAN BAIK2 SAUDARA2!!! -histeris-
yang jlas bwt gue sii, sama skali gak mirip. soale buat gue ituk itu dewa ganteng, en asun itu.. -coughsssss...-
but, mata enyak gw itu emank lihai dalam milih orang [walo gue takut dia udah katarakan because of this case lol]
jadi, yah... buat yang pnasaran, yawda anggep aja muka cowok gue = muka ituk [walo gue sangsi klo gue kog bisa yah dapet cowok scakep ntuh? xD;]

emank sii, sama2 cina [korea dink lol]. sipit dah nyebutnye xD terus sama2 putih en kurus, rambutnya juga jabrik geje. sayangnya ituk mancung <333333333 en ITUK ITU MANISSSSS!!!!! -digampar- xD

I love eeteuk oppa <333 saranghaeeeeeeee -histeris lagi-

Rabu, 22 Oktober 2008

fragrances

















mom bought these for me X3
it's escada, kenzo, and bvlgari. there's a louis vuitton also that she planned to buy but she told me the fragrance's smell wasn't that good. but I'm happyyy :3

and anyway, I'm chasing a ruki from U.S lol
his words are really look like aiji ,__,
and also because of bebek, I decided that I would date him no matter what!!! lol
wismilak 8Dv

Selasa, 21 Oktober 2008

mommyyyyyyyy ;A;

shit, I need entertainment!
I wanna hang out with my friends
I wanna do cosplay again
I wanna go to japanese events
I wanna meet MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS ;A;

apa sii salah gue benernya? cuman gara2 nilai rapor knaekan kelas gue kmaren knapa ampe skarang gue enggak dikasih bebas kemana2 slaen ke gading en rumah sodara gue?? emank apa hubungannya? gue kangen sama temen2 gue. udah lama banget enggak ketemu, dan pas ngeliat foto2 mereka lage kumpul bareng, to be honest, yes I do envy with them |: knapa sii? padahal bokab gue kerjaannya bolak balik ke selatan mulu. maennya di sekitaran pim sama ex sono. emank ngapa klo gue ditaro disana bentaran aja? 3 jem juga gue balik kog >.>

terus kenapa gara2 gue udah punya cowok gue mesti pentingin tuh eek duluan daripada temen2 yang lebih gue sayang? emanknya salah apa klo weekend gue mao spending sama temen2 gue, huh??? ]:
gue willing kog jalan sama temen2 dia, walo ada yang gue enggak kenal. tapi kenapa klo gue ajak jalan sama temen gue dia nolak, walo alus tetep aja .__.
bilang enggak enaklah, enggak kenal-lah. lah gue?? dia bawa temen2nya segerombolan cowok, en gue cewek sndirian. tapi gue tetep masih rela2in >_>
bete gue, tau gitu kan enggak usah jadian aja. pusing >_____>;;; -i hope he wouldnt read this blog- lol
mana enyak gue cerewet banget lage. klo gue ada waktu en bokap udah rela mao nganter ke pim, dia yang ngekang gue supaya stay di gading sama cowok gue. katanya, "kamu kan udah ada cowok, jangan maen terus sama temen2 kamu"

HOLISIT TAU GAKKKKKKKKKK >A<
I need friends more than everything, and honestly I don't liebe him at all ]: I just want to get fun with him. but he cant give me that fun. though different with bule gila's case, cause I did love him so I didn't ask him to give me more happiness. but different now!!!!!!

mendingan gue maen sama yumi daripada sama die >A<;;;
aaaaaaaaa...... ;________;

gue mao jalan2. gue mao traktiran. gue mao ntn bareng lage. gue mao cosu. gue mao gibah rp en alines. yang jelas, I GET BORED WITH GADING AND MY FUCKIN LIFE RIGHT NOWWWW ;A;



klo bisa nangis gue nangis deh ]:

miss you guys,
yang nyelametin gue ultah, premiere twilight ntn bareng yuk. gw traktir? x3

Minggu, 19 Oktober 2008

korea

today, my mom asked me about where we would go this december as a vacation. I and my brother surely answered /korea/, cause we wanted to meet suju lol
and unexpectedly, my mom said, "alright. let's see"

o_____O i thought she would say, "no, its too expensive" or something like that. but, the answer showed me that there was a possible to go to korea right? o__O

and well -coughs- i, can't speak korea at all. if you ask me to speak in chinese or english, i can. but not koreaaa >_<;; i just a fan of korea for less than 2 months. so i just knew something like mianhee, saranghae, and kamsahamida. THATS ALL O__O
and though i went to korea, i think i cant go to suju's performance cause its really hard to go to korea alone if youre a tourist, right?
so that;s why, i really want to have a korea friend who live in there, and also love suju. so it will make me easier to go to suju and meet them 8D

is there anyone who has korean friends? DDD:
i need it, really >_<
all korea that i know is in united states TwT;;

Sabtu, 18 Oktober 2008

new cell and new hoodie







































cause my motorola had broken, [yes i did give it to motorola service but it was such a waste cause they couldnt repair it at all]. i decided to buy a new cell. at first my mom asked me to buy n81 or n82 cause its a new phone, but i rejected it because the camera wasnt like i want. so when i thought so hard about what my new cell would be, i remembered my friends [amei, gio, kana, anchi, and others who bought a sony]
so thats, i already have had a new w830i [am i wrong? 8D;;]
its purple X3333
looks good, but sadly im still gaptek using it lol

and i went to mangga dua today, i bought new hoodie ;3
thats new photo anyway 8D haha~

new earing





















I bought new earing, which was come at thursday with my super show [super junior concert]. it was eeteuk's earing, looks cool right? XD
and i dont /tindik/ my ear, no no. . i just sticked it on that lol

Sabtu, 11 Oktober 2008

I WINNNNN XDDD

2nd place cutest asian girl at wonderasian xD
with 161 votes lol

thats pretty cool!!!

and this is the pic that I used xD
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vdmlld21vcmVwaWNzLm15c3BhY2UuY29tL2luZGV4LmNmbT9mdXNlYWN0aW9uPXZpZXdJbWFnZSZmcmllbmRJRD0zOTE1NzgzNjEmYWxidW1JRD03MTI5MDYmaW1hZ2VJRD0xMzIyNzkzMA==

thanks to hime, she helped me picking the pic <3

and this is the 1st winner
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vdmlld21vcmVwaWNzLm15c3BhY2UuY29tL2luZGV4LmNmbT9mdXNlYWN0aW9uPXZpZXdJbWFnZSZmcmllbmRJRD0zOTE1NzgzNjEmYWxidW1JRD03MTI5MDMmaW1hZ2VJRD0xMzM5NjU1NA==

very cute o_o

nyomot quiz bebek

yang katanya dikasih tau cumi, so i tried it to to myself. walo itu site buat agama yah? yo wes ggpapa lah yah xD

S***** M*******
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- Kerusakan, kebinasaan dan kematian
- Bengis, ketus dan kedukaan
- Pertempuran/peperangan
- Pelit, cemburu, ketidaksempurnaan
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o______________________o;; kog gue jaat banget TAT;;; -mewek-
stidaknya gue mahsyur, jenis, dan kuat 8D;;;


then, nyobain pake seira

SEIRA
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BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA -sarap-

ah tapi, apalah arti sbuah nama deh xD
dadah 8D

Kamis, 09 Oktober 2008

berliannnnnnnn ;A;

moso moso.. ari ini koko gue yang di sidni putus :3
awal2nye dia kayak bete2 gtu, yawda gue diemin, terus dia cerita kayake dia mao putus. yah gue cheering him up lah, bilang jangan putus lah, apalah [sok baek]. tapi dia nekat putus. yawda kan ya, bukan urusan gue

terus dia bilang, dia blon kasih kalung berlian yang udah dia beli buat ceweknye. niatnya kan akhir taon dia baru mao kaseh pas kabur ke cina. terus dia malah nawarin gue, buat elo aja ama cowok elo. kalungnya kan tuh sepasang gitu, berlian, mahallllllll, cakep banget pula. terus gue yang sok2 nolak gitu, bilang jangan soale terlalu mahal. dia maksa soale dia gak tau mao kasih ke sapa lage [sbenernya caranya gampang, JUAL AJA DODOL XD] yah gue mao!!! cuman gue kan tetep matre bertopeng 1000 XDDD

akhirnya gue enggak dapet berliannye, enyak gue goblok2in gue ;A;
ada yang tau gak caranya supaya gue dapet? LOL

Sabtu, 04 Oktober 2008

suju

aduh, stres gue T__T;;
masalah antingnya si ituk juga.. lobang gue cuman satu, tapi itu ternyata musti berlobang dua... gw gak mungkin tindik lage, smentara yang spasang ini aja udah mao rapet >A< -paling males pake anting-
aahh.. knapa juga sii gue beli yang itu, padahal ada yang laen yang lbih murah T_T begooo

terus dvdnya, gue takut enggak nyampe >A< secara kan gue sndiri juga ENGGAK YAKIN alamat gue yang bener dimana o__o;;; jalannya gue tau, nah NOMERNYE??? orang itu apartemen ;A;
terus gue takut klo slah masuk tower ato gmana >__<;;
ato ditilep ama sekuriti.. ato sekuriti apartemen gue lage enggak ada di sono, terus jadinya engga ada yang ngambil, barang gue ilang deh, sumpah gue takut T___T

but anyway, tanggal 2 kmaren dvd suju yang super show dah rilis :3
terus kmaren dah dikirim, beserta anting ituknye

aduh Tuhan, tolong dong disampein >_<
amin

bgm > rokugo - suju T

ah bete

lazy to write in english, so here you go, indonesia people~

dari tadi gue juga udah enggak mao pgi.. cuman dipaksa enyak ke TA. katanya entar diajak juga makan di jw mariot klo smpet. yawda gue siap2 mandi aja kan ye, scara kangen sama tuh hotel :/

terus sblon gue mandi, bokab gue ngmg, klo tantenya dia kan kmaren2 dateng gitu dari makassar, terus mao minta dianter jalan2 keliling jakarta, soale besok dia udah balik. nah itu nenek2 sama anak2 en cucu2nye rombongan gitu. gila aje, apv gue mana muat Dx terus minta dijemput di cibubur, dianter ke apartemen gue dolo di gading, terus ke mangdu, baru ke cibubur lage, baru gw pulang ke gading. ANJRIT banget Dx die kate bkb gue sopir apean. bkb gue mao aja lage, katanya gak enak
padahal klo gue ke satu tmpat aja, ke PIM, gue diomelin, katanya bbm naek. skarang jaoan mana sii ama cibubur, HAAHH??? >A<;;
gue udah bete, tapi gue diem aja, daripada disemprul

eh tau2nya mereka maonya ke mangga dua square. ADA APAAN EMANKNYE DISONO HUH???!!! DX enakan juga ke TA, kan ada toko sushi sama hegendes >3<
banyak cogan pula. mangdu ari sabtu, sarap kale Dx

gue stay diem aja.. akhirnya bet recover piling, gue ama adek gue joget2 pajama party en U ._.
terus pas gue slese mandi, gue tanya enyak, bokab kmana. ktanya udah jalan ke cibubur, jemput tuh sodara eek :/
en karna katanya mobil gue enggak muat, gue bertigaan sama enyak en adek gue, disuruh naek taksi sndiri ke TA. BEGO!!! suruh tantenye aja yang naek taksi ngape?????

taik ah, gue jadi makin males pergi kan
bego..
gue kutuk tuh kluarga >A<
biar kutilan ama kurapan satu badan, terus lobang idungnya jadi gede. eek lo!

gue yakin nii, entar makan siang sama makan malem bkb gue yang bayar, bensinnya juga. cucu2nya tantenye terus klo mao apa pasti dibliin. duit lage duit lage. mendingan bwt gue kan..


apalage gue salah beli anting >A<;;
itu tindikannya 2!!! gue cuman satu!
moso gue tindik? gak boleh sama enyak ;3; klo tindik sndiri, gue takut >A<>A<

aaaa... beteee

Kamis, 02 Oktober 2008

main photo!!! xD

photo with leopard!!!
I was shiver and shudder!!! lol


safari park





















I went to Safari Park Indonesia.. dengan gaya slengean enggak jelas xD

















and the most wonderful thing, I saw bears MAKING LOVE!!!! LOL





















terus naek onta [enggak tau inggrisnye apean xD]




















this orang utan also showed me his(?) butt as well. haha. sexy butt <3 xD
after that I was feed elephants X33





















went to puncak





















with my cousins and family :DDDDDD

and we ate sate and goat's soup @///////@U
its really delicious 8Dv