bad day

today I go to a psychologist. and it's really like what had I thought about. It's really annoying. I really knew what would the doctor said and responded to all of my answers. I knew so well what would she told me to make myself feel better. And also I think if it's really useless to waste my time and money only to talk with someone that I didn't know

Maybe the doctor thought that I couldn't solve my own problems and couldn't find any place to share them. But I really did!

I've a lot of friends to share my problem with. I always tell them my problems, though they couldn't help and only gave stupid suggestion, at least it's not much different than the doctor

oh please mom, I hate this..

I can solve my problem by myself. I don't need doctor, doctor, and doctor again. I'm okay. My disease had finally gone from my life. So what do you have to care for?

Don't waste your money again only for this stupid and silly things for me. It's really useless. If I need someone to talk, I can talk with my friends. Not with the doctor... got it?


I hate doctor!! D8

---- still missing him a lot... though I almost did suicide yesterday cause in unconscious and sent him message, telling him that I wanted to hear his voice -to make me feel better and forget my plan-, he didn't answer. I don't know why. Maybe he thought that it's not important. But in fact, it really did *sighs* okay, I don't want to argue with him. I need to unconcerned about it. So hope yesterday I can to be uncompromising.

night