Am I bipolar? >__>

I don't know why this feeling happen to me. yesterday I felt that I was the luckiest and happiest person in this world cause I had a lot of nice friends, a gentle boyfriend, and a warm family. But today, I felt that I was the most abandoned person in this world

I felt, also thought that,

no one really love me..

no one really care about me..

no one really want to be my friend..

and no one trust me completely..




I felt like a shit cause thinking shitty things like that. But what could I do? That feeling appeared suddenly without I wanted to.

I even thought to cut my wrist. Luckily I didn't have any cutter. Even not, *sighs* I don't know what will happen to me today.. Yes, teacher got angry to me. She told me that I have to not do that silly thing. And also my close friends prevented me. But, I didn't think that they really want me to stop it. Cause after that, they still smiled and talked happily to others, ignoring me. they didn't really care about me!!

So, the question is, Who will cry from their deepest heart if I'm die?

I bet no one. Cause I'm not so special for anyone till can make them cry only for me. .
I'm just a dumbass chick who always makes troubles to people around me

I'm sorry that I'm alive..