gonna be older soon

12 days again Im gonna be 16. yay? not so happy for this birthday this year. haha
first because I can't celebrate it with my cosplay and internet friends in PIM like I used to because of 1 or 2 reason(s)

and second, its because Im getting older. I wanna be always young!!! xD seriously, who likes to be an old one?

and third *sighs* it's because HE cant celebrate with me. I bet you know who is HIM.. it's my ex, robert
I had thought since last year that Id celebrate it with him.. this year.. I wanna him call me and say "happy birthday, Ily" only that. I dont need he comes to me then hugs me [though I want but it's almost impossible], I just need he was with me in my 16th birthday.. I just wanted him to hug me in MSN and kiss me softly like he used to be..

*sighs*

I always tell myself. at least keep the relationship till my birthday, but I just cant hold my mind and feeling. you guys know, I always do anything without thinking >_> my weakness -A-;

and well, this year.. without him *chuckles bitterly*
tho Im going to not meet him anymore, have no chance at all. He wont read this page or try to contact me also.. so well, it's useless to be thinking about him anymore. But it just suddenly came up from my mind. A miss feeling

.____________.

and anyway, I havent done anything for about 16th years in my life. Havent done anything that can make my parents be proud of me, or done anything useful for my future. nothing..
I hope after being a 16th, I can be a more mature girl. and I can forget him completely..
Though that, seriously, this birthday seem will be a bored and blank one.. because nothing is important

well, move on /ME/!!! :3