IMPORTANT

I want to take an university outside from my country, indonesia

But I still don't know which one I pick

I need an uni which is :
- not so expensive [international student's tuition is like a hell xD;]
- quite good
- allow their students to take a part time
- located in a good place with not so expensive living cost
- using english, if its not, at least we get 1 year for learning the language
- it will be more good if there's scholarship also
- not in UK, because UK's english is really hard!!! XD

can you guys give me some uni's that you know? D:
please!!! >___<
I really need it


I already have some options anyway :
SFSU [san fransisco state university] - CA
nan yang university - singapore
UC Berkeley - CA
ritsumeikan university - Japan
Kyungsung university - korea


again, pleaseeeeeee~

please, for people who think that I'm their friend

please.. dont leave me alone
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not good enough
I know I'm not the most caring
I know I'm not only your best friend
I know I'm not someone that you will cry for
I know I'm not the one who will always be your side whenever you need me

but I beg to you, don't leave me. I do love all of you, but I feel that everyone has gone slowly but surely

I feel alone, the pain comes and stabs my heart so bad
I do want to be a good friend. But I know I am not. I never be good enough for you
I know that I'm not real nice. I just pretend to be nice. So you all won't be mad and stay away from me

to be honest, I'm envy with people that can show theirself completely with their friends and their friends can accept it, even like it
I am not able..

never





I'm afraid that when I show you my bad side, you will hate me. you will disgust me, you will go away from me. or even you will break our friendship
I stand with pain for so long, I just want to have a true friend. but why is it so hard?
why my sacrifices is not being worthed? and how come you replied it with yell and curse?
what did I do?

-sighs deeply-

I just need, someone who think, that I am here. I am not someone that you only can have fun with. I am also a human. who has emotion as well like you do
so please, treat me at least a little bit more nice
and feel
that I'm breath
in this world





>>> I will be better soon, don't worry. I'm just in emo mood

O____O;;;

moso yah... kan gue tadi sama adek gue gue lage nyanyi2 suju geje gitu, sambil dancing tentunya LOL terusan gue unjukin mukanya anak2 suju, enyak gue komen deh. terusan akhirnya sampe ke poto ituk, tau gak enyak gue ngmg apa? [gakk..]

ini yah ituk :

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"Yang itu mirip sama asuk lho.. -nunjuk foto ituk-"

PERHATIKAN BAIK2 SAUDARA2!!! -histeris-
yang jlas bwt gue sii, sama skali gak mirip. soale buat gue ituk itu dewa ganteng, en asun itu.. -coughsssss...-
but, mata enyak gw itu emank lihai dalam milih orang [walo gue takut dia udah katarakan because of this case lol]
jadi, yah... buat yang pnasaran, yawda anggep aja muka cowok gue = muka ituk [walo gue sangsi klo gue kog bisa yah dapet cowok scakep ntuh? xD;]

emank sii, sama2 cina [korea dink lol]. sipit dah nyebutnye xD terus sama2 putih en kurus, rambutnya juga jabrik geje. sayangnya ituk mancung <333333333 en ITUK ITU MANISSSSS!!!!! -digampar- xD

I love eeteuk oppa <333 saranghaeeeeeeee -histeris lagi-

fragrances

mom bought these for me X3
it's escada, kenzo, and bvlgari. there's a louis vuitton also that she planned to buy but she told me the fragrance's smell wasn't that good. but I'm happyyy :3

and anyway, I'm chasing a ruki from U.S lol
his words are really look like aiji ,__,
and also because of bebek, I decided that I would date him no matter what!!! lol
wismilak 8Dv

mommyyyyyyyy ;A;

shit, I need entertainment!
I wanna hang out with my friends
I wanna do cosplay again
I wanna go to japanese events
I wanna meet MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS ;A;

apa sii salah gue benernya? cuman gara2 nilai rapor knaekan kelas gue kmaren knapa ampe skarang gue enggak dikasih bebas kemana2 slaen ke gading en rumah sodara gue?? emank apa hubungannya? gue kangen sama temen2 gue. udah lama banget enggak ketemu, dan pas ngeliat foto2 mereka lage kumpul bareng, to be honest, yes I do envy with them |: knapa sii? padahal bokab gue kerjaannya bolak balik ke selatan mulu. maennya di sekitaran pim sama ex sono. emank ngapa klo gue ditaro disana bentaran aja? 3 jem juga gue balik kog >.>

terus kenapa gara2 gue udah punya cowok gue mesti pentingin tuh eek duluan daripada temen2 yang lebih gue sayang? emanknya salah apa klo weekend gue mao spending sama temen2 gue, huh??? ]:
gue willing kog jalan sama temen2 dia, walo ada yang gue enggak kenal. tapi kenapa klo gue ajak jalan sama temen gue dia nolak, walo alus tetep aja .__.
bilang enggak enaklah, enggak kenal-lah. lah gue?? dia bawa temen2nya segerombolan cowok, en gue cewek sndirian. tapi gue tetep masih rela2in >_>
bete gue, tau gitu kan enggak usah jadian aja. pusing >_____>;;; -i hope he wouldnt read this blog- lol
mana enyak gue cerewet banget lage. klo gue ada waktu en bokap udah rela mao nganter ke pim, dia yang ngekang gue supaya stay di gading sama cowok gue. katanya, "kamu kan udah ada cowok, jangan maen terus sama temen2 kamu"

HOLISIT TAU GAKKKKKKKKKK >A<
I need friends more than everything, and honestly I don't liebe him at all ]: I just want to get fun with him. but he cant give me that fun. though different with bule gila's case, cause I did love him so I didn't ask him to give me more happiness. but different now!!!!!!

mendingan gue maen sama yumi daripada sama die >A<;;;
aaaaaaaaa...... ;________;

gue mao jalan2. gue mao traktiran. gue mao ntn bareng lage. gue mao cosu. gue mao gibah rp en alines. yang jelas, I GET BORED WITH GADING AND MY FUCKIN LIFE RIGHT NOWWWW ;A;



klo bisa nangis gue nangis deh ]:

miss you guys,
yang nyelametin gue ultah, premiere twilight ntn bareng yuk. gw traktir? x3

korea

today, my mom asked me about where we would go this december as a vacation. I and my brother surely answered /korea/, cause we wanted to meet suju lol
and unexpectedly, my mom said, "alright. let's see"

o_____O i thought she would say, "no, its too expensive" or something like that. but, the answer showed me that there was a possible to go to korea right? o__O

and well -coughs- i, can't speak korea at all. if you ask me to speak in chinese or english, i can. but not koreaaa >_<;; i just a fan of korea for less than 2 months. so i just knew something like mianhee, saranghae, and kamsahamida. THATS ALL O__O
and though i went to korea, i think i cant go to suju's performance cause its really hard to go to korea alone if youre a tourist, right?
so that;s why, i really want to have a korea friend who live in there, and also love suju. so it will make me easier to go to suju and meet them 8D

is there anyone who has korean friends? DDD:
i need it, really >_<
all korea that i know is in united states TwT;;

new cell and new hoodie

cause my motorola had broken, [yes i did give it to motorola service but it was such a waste cause they couldnt repair it at all]. i decided to buy a new cell. at first my mom asked me to buy n81 or n82 cause its a new phone, but i rejected it because the camera wasnt like i want. so when i thought so hard about what my new cell would be, i remembered my friends [amei, gio, kana, anchi, and others who bought a sony]
so thats, i already have had a new w830i [am i wrong? 8D;;]
its purple X3333
looks good, but sadly im still gaptek using it lol

and i went to mangga dua today, i bought new hoodie ;3
thats new photo anyway 8D haha~