behel

I used purple rotten teeth 8DDDDDD
its me, grinning LOL

sean

I wanna kick a girl from sydney DDD: well, I dunno what her name is, but she is my brother's gf [well, he is not my real sibling though.. only play from internet]
my brother sean told me yesterday that her gf had a feeling toward another guy where she did overseas. and it really pissed me off :/

she played with my friend's feeling and I dont like it, at all! and I dont know is my brother toooo nice or tooo stupid, he still gave his gf some times to think it again well =___=;; also when I cursed her gf and told him how much I didn't like her because of that, he was still calm and defended his gf, though that I know well how hurt he is .__.

she is too stupid to neglect someone awesome like my bro!!!!! =_=;;
my bro is handsome enough [well, pretty maybe?], he is studying in a good university in sydney, he is tall and strong, his family economic is great. he loves her gf so much. also, he is the one who will never cheat!
so I call his gf very BAKA!!! -___-;;

my bro was very very sad yesterday and kinda depressed, wish I could help him but sadly I couldn't ._. sorry bro ;x;
he even asked me, what is his lack?
well, he is almost perfect! ba-ka~ :/
his gf is really really stupid. I really wanna kick her butt right now >_>


ingin hati kuberkata~, "elu jadian aja sini sama gue" xDDD tapi enggak mungkin kan ye, yang ada putus hubungan kk adek lol

oiya, gue punya ekon rp baru =D jadi takeru ;3
this time I want to have a new gentle boyfriend!!! harus itu! capek gue maen sama orang2 jermani nan mesum >_>;;
I want to have a guy who can treat me right and spoil me lovingly ♥ moga2 bisa nemu di takeru yah, takeru kan cakep >_< amin!

pokoke gue musti bisa lebih bahagia daripada obet! gak boleh enggak! arus! dia gak boleh bahagia lebih dulu pula dari gue :/ *jaat*

vacation has over~

without putting any make up =_=;; my face is in allergy



and I have to dye my hair into black again >_>;
well, I had done it this noon anyway. and so, that's the pic *points up* really /chinese/ lmao

which one I look better? in brown or black? xD

I'm kinda shock when my hair was black again. Somewhat I look like a miyavi :/ but of course my face isn't as handsome as miyavi lol just similar..

maybe I can cosplay as him later nee? ;3

U_U

I joined a boiznk quiz. it's 1000questions..
and when I almost reached the 600question, the data lost

U_________________________U

I wanna cry ;__________;

:(( :(( :((

enough

I'm enough with my life, really..

things arent going well and trust me, no one cares about me *laughs*
all they talk mostly about their problem nee? Yes I did tell them about my problems also, but not all of the problems, especially my real feelings. when I needed to talk light things to cure my feelings, they started crying to me *lirik seorang cowok geje dari singapur*, talked to me angrily with their own problems without clear reason, and mores

when I gave them advice, they just told me that they couldnt do it / didnt want it / other reasons. yadda yadda... but I bet you guys would be more mad to me if I only replied with ordinary answers like "oh, Im sorry about it", or put some sad emoticons. at least I should reply and give advice right??


really. I'm tired...
very tired


these days I'm having too much problems to be solved. and people added their problems in my mind. I can't handle it..

if I give you guys advices in your problems but you dont want it, its okay. its your right. but after that please dont talk and cry to me about it again.. because trust me, no one will be interested in those same topics every time. I give you the conclusion and also the way to solve it but you dont want it, so I dont want to get into it again :/
you are the one who doesnt want to end your pain, arent you?
it doesnt due to only a person no.. but some friends >.>; and I'm sorry if I sound mean.. but its really my mind now


okay, I realized that talked weird =__=;;
I'm still sick yeah. but its getting better now. though still cant breath. maybe I wrote this because of my ill too. so well, haha, when I'm getting healthier perhaps I wont act like this again so calm

sorry . .




I'm really enough with these all. I really think many questions which I dont know what the answer is

what is our main point to live in here?
why do we have to stay in this world?
what do we live for?
what should we do in here?


is there anyone can answer it? haha...






slowly but sure, I'm thinking a way to release my pain *coughs*
you guys definitely know what I am thinking to do next :]

fight

havent fought with my mom since a while. and today, I fought with her.. haha..

I know my body isn't as health as it used to. I can't breath well [pilek, klo bahasa ancurnya gue udah bengek parah LOL], my throat is hurt, dizzy as hell, and many mores. so of course I'm being so lazy to speak to anyone

and so, when I was preparing for sleep earlier after locked my bedroom door, mom knocked my door roughly. lazily and weakly I opened it, but I had to press the door hardly if not, It would have never opened. and so, mom scolded me because I was hit the door roughly. but I didnt want to discuss it because my head is very dizzy..

so she yelled at me many times and screamed. then, the final, she told me, "I never want to have a child like you"

and... who want?????? well, she has said it many times before this. haha..

after that she scolded me more. and hit me twice *sighs*

I'm out of limit, so I yelled back, "I also never want to born in this family! I never can choose which family I should to be born to. but till now I never say it to you! "

and it brought up her emotion. she pinched my arm, hardly.. its still getting red now. haha
then she yelled to me many times. told me how much I have to thank for her. said to me that she never ask anything to be given. also let me know indirectly that she was the best mom

I'm outta and sick with this... why everyone is being cruel to me nowadays? >>;;
I'm tired. I'm sick. and of course I have my time for my own, haven't I?

*sighs*


my head is getting dizzy again. so I'm going to sleep soon. good bye

bengek!!!!!

IDUNG GUE MAMPET!!! SIALAN!!!!! ingusnya pun beleberan enggak stop2!!!

huh hah huh hah!! *korek2 idung* dari smalem neh!! sialan!!!! >___>;;
udah gitu tenggorokan juga sakit, dan kpala gue pusing banget
tadi udah makan paya juga yang banyak, tetep aja enggak sembuh. aduh, kog sakit2 hari gini sii ;A;

masalahnya besok kan ada launching tuh pv aib gue!!!! dan *coughs* KATANYA TUH SBY DATENG X___X;;

enggak lucu kan klo gue lage jabatan ujung2nya gini

sei : halo om *nyengir nyengir najonk*
sby : salam kenal
sei : hua.. hua...
sby : ??
sei : HUATCHIUUU.. SROOTTT.. *ingus nempel en beleberan ke jas sby*
sby : *jantungan*
sei : *ditangkep sama bodyguards sby, brakhir di pnjara* ;O;

yaelah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_________> *korek2 idung terus*
ini ingus stop ngalir ngape siiiii ;A;


.....

berdarah lagi idungnya.. TT___TT *meper darah ke badan anjing* lol *is jorok*




oh yah, ari ini gue blajar potosyop banyak dari mipup en rei. thankies guys <3 udah bikin gue yang bego jadi pinteran dikit XD
terus si rei itu ngajarin gue udah banyak banget, ampe bikin gue bengek beneran. ngek XDD

yah, makasih deh. takoyakinya enggak usah ye. pisang goreng aje lol *kabur*

udah ah. pusing. mao opp. pipis loph en gaul! XD