my new apartment

I just moved [again] into a new apartment. I rent this apartment for a year, but I dont know will it be last long or not xD perhaps if I like living in here, I will spend my high school time in here 8D

I have no time to take the pic of it because there are still many boxes in living room ><;;
gonna post the photo later 8D

blahh~~

for this 16th birthday :/
it's a thing that I was waiting for in a long time but when it almost come, it is really.. simple thing :/

even I have had a lot of problems with some persons..
such as my EX-friend.. MELON DX she's a liar one X/
and then also with my mom..
not forget with /anak gaul hocimin/ .___.

-sighs deeply-

stressful... tiring.. meaningless..

nowadays I feel empty so badly. without anything that I really want or will to do or to gain


well, I had already planned to make a party in a pizza restaurant with my high school's student, they already will to buy me presents and expensive cake, and also we will hang out till night in this saturday night, but it's still feeling empty ._.

though I know I shouldn't feel like this because it means I don't appreciate them, but I need one thing

I wanna /him/ -coughs- to text me and say, "happy birthday, I loveD you"
but that's impossible, isn't it? -laughs bitterly-
tho I believe he doesnt even know when my birthday is. I'm sure -nodnod-

I wanna a loveeeeeee... I need it.... Dx

new hair

because my mother wasnt give me money this birthday, I asked her to cut my hair at toni and guy's salon... and so, here the picture

cat coklatnya lunturrrr >A<


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sogo

after that, my shopping lust appeared again XDDD
so when the cold stone was finish, I forced my parents to go to SOGO 8D;;
and then, I bought it. 2 eyeliners from borjouis [purple and blue] and a mascara from revlon. in fact I wanna maybelline, but mom doesnt like it D:
well, kinda expensive but its worthy <3

oh yeah, after that I went to Johnny Andrean salon, doing creambath 8Dv
hahahaha, days with wasting parent's money is really worthless but full of happiness LOL

cold stone

is delicious!! 8Dv
this morning involuntary I saw Oprah's show and it talked about cold stone. so I was remembered that it was just opened in kelapa gading mall a while ago. so I dragged my parents to go along with me [yes my brother also] and then we tried it :3
and surprisingly, it's very expensive =A=''

I thought the price was similar like baskin or haagen but it almost twice >_<
but well, lust lost price 8D;;

we bought two.. strawberry blablabla and cheesecake blablabla lol
its delicious >w< you guys should try it also next time if youre able :D

that BENCONG teacher DDDx

my geography teacher, Mr.Joko punched my right back hardly today. without any reason!!!

well, so the story is :
another teacher asked me to buy a new skirt in school's because she thought that my skirt is too short. so I obeyed her and in my geographic class, then another teacher [Mr.Bambang] came to my class to check whether I had already bought it or not. so I moved in front of the class to show him my new long skirt.. and he made a pose like he slapped me, but it was only a joke, obviously

but Mr.Joko suddenly punched my right back hardly when I didn't look at him >_>
after that he gripped my right arm so tight till it got reddish .__. I pulled my arm away from him and almost kicked him. But I know the position, he's a teacher and I'm a student. I would have no chance to win against him

so after school getting over, I told my dad about this and he was really angry about it. he walked and approached my teacher, ready to punching him back. but well, do you know, Mr. Joko is a /bencong/, means he is a FEMININE guy xDD you know what I mean lol
so my dad was disgusted by him. he didn't do anything just lectured Mr.Joko to not doing it again. my mom? held her laugh as well when seeing my dad's reaction and Mr.Joko's femininity xD

well, it's over yeah. but I still feel a little mad at him =A= because what he did to me is never be done by my dad!!! who he is till he is able or has right to punch me??
he doesn't gimme anything .__.

am I right? or wrong? D:

gonna be older soon

12 days again Im gonna be 16. yay? not so happy for this birthday this year. haha
first because I can't celebrate it with my cosplay and internet friends in PIM like I used to because of 1 or 2 reason(s)

and second, its because Im getting older. I wanna be always young!!! xD seriously, who likes to be an old one?

and third *sighs* it's because HE cant celebrate with me. I bet you know who is HIM.. it's my ex, robert
I had thought since last year that Id celebrate it with him.. this year.. I wanna him call me and say "happy birthday, Ily" only that. I dont need he comes to me then hugs me [though I want but it's almost impossible], I just need he was with me in my 16th birthday.. I just wanted him to hug me in MSN and kiss me softly like he used to be..

*sighs*

I always tell myself. at least keep the relationship till my birthday, but I just cant hold my mind and feeling. you guys know, I always do anything without thinking >_> my weakness -A-;

and well, this year.. without him *chuckles bitterly*
tho Im going to not meet him anymore, have no chance at all. He wont read this page or try to contact me also.. so well, it's useless to be thinking about him anymore. But it just suddenly came up from my mind. A miss feeling

.____________.

and anyway, I havent done anything for about 16th years in my life. Havent done anything that can make my parents be proud of me, or done anything useful for my future. nothing..
I hope after being a 16th, I can be a more mature girl. and I can forget him completely..
Though that, seriously, this birthday seem will be a bored and blank one.. because nothing is important

well, move on /ME/!!! :3